So, what to write about this week? Should I write about my secret holiday to Italy? I doubt any of my real life, physically located friends read this so this will probably stay a secret. And if you are reading this my proximal friends… Hey! Thanks for reading! I didn't even know you could read! Kidding! Kidding! But seriously if you are, let me know you're reading. It's lonely as a creator with no feedback.

Anyways… since they're probably definitely not here, I'll tell you dear reader.

I didn't tell some of my friends that I just went on holiday so they wouldn't get jealous. I was invited to a holiday earlier in the year that I didn't want to go to because my financial situation would become difficult if I did. They were putting loads of pressure on me to come, even after I told them I can't afford it... which I actually think is a dick move. Making someone feel bad and continuing to apply pressure when the reason is external to the person… dickish.  But… in fairness, they're not dicks, and it comes from a good place. They wanted to spend time with me. So I can't hold it against them really.

Anyway, I believe I agreed and paid for the flights to Italy before I even knew the other one was happening, so I don't feel too bad about it. It's just that they made such a fuss about me going, I feel like a fuss would be made if they knew about Italy.

It's been quite difficult for me. Having to have two different stories. Living one, while talking about the other. Making up excuses for not being able to join activities the week I was away. I'm an open book and I like being an open book. It makes my life simple and I think it's part of why people like me, wysiwyg. I also dislike telling lies. I even try to avoid the tiny innocuous lies society wants us to tell. So the additional mental cycles of filtering my life through the lie… a new experience and not a nice one for me. It's over now, and I have confessed here. So it's off my chest?

Anyways, I just got back from Italy and I think it was a mistake. It was slightly fiscally irresponsible but more than that, I was on crutches the entire time. Have you ever done a walking holiday on crutches while being in constant pain? That question was rhetorical. Do you know what…? I think rhetorical questions in text should not have a question mark. That's my take. 

Anyways… a walking holiday on crutches while being in constant pain, let me tell you, it's not the best, I was even more of a miserable bastard than I normally am.

But I am back now. More sedentary than ever, which my hip LOVES! I seem to be off crutches in the flat with only a little pain.

Have a good week! Thank you for reading!